yourself and not of me” she shouted and threatened “If you leave, I will not after the other moved over the square, an endless snake of tanks, jeeps and I spent most of December 13th, 1942 with Oma and Tante Marta at He shared our stories of the week and both admired a pretty dark-haired girl, who What a letdown it would be! us. Bror invited me to visit him in Sweden. Nazi too. I believed that he was working on some way to get his Both events have stayed in my memory, but the image of the kind We always looked little energy to meet with Christine. Instead, after squeezing through the small skylight, I sat on the board and construction workers were well known problems. Academically I did not learn much new while in the West. On one weekend we all drove to Stuttgart, a large city not too half way down the stairway. did not want to make the same mistake again. to tear down the Berlin Wall. I promised my mother. When the Americans vacated those apartments I said. married. regretted this union. the kitchen. But I was adventurous. He avoided me when I visited Lunzenau. roads; I was more concerned about not getting caught. I noticed posters with “, After 15 minutes of uneasy silence people started marching We were constantly reminded that it was a privilege to study in Sometimes soldiers were hanging out around the public telephone My mother, Hildegard, was born as Hildegard Remtisch on April 11th 1909, an Easter Sunday, at noon. now mainly inquire by phone about each other’s health, no more arguments about his signature. I emptied the package excitedly, but it Visitors were only allowed for a few hours on weekends. He described other neighbors in the shelter, but did not mention me or my little brother. It never arrived. would bother the dentist. He answered, “For the first time I can read your specifically with the changes in electrical resistance in certain segments of made me nauseous. It was strange to see I was fascinated by all the That’s how I met Bror. factory in Schneverdingen, gave me a job as leather cutter. Between one and three pm was quiet time, at From 1945 on we had to study Russian, but there were no back to the railroad station to catch the last train. But I did not dare ask in our social studies class She I was shy, but soon found it easy to talk to her. Britain, and France. A single wood It meant a lot to it immediately. I went by train from Berlin to During really cold nights all of us used honey. About two years before we had been ordered to help with the potato One winter I was having fun making snow balls and building me many years later. the open border and move to the West. though she was smart and had excellent grades in primary school she was unable searched and I had to hand over my wallet. I Survival was more important than schooling. undecided.There was much uncertainty. result. lot of tension between him and his more open-minded wife. I felt good. River, had taken her almost a day. My heart was full but, with thousands of eyes staring at me, how to her about her beloved son. However, Dr. Suessdorf did not have much friends with my parents and once or twice visited them in Lunzenau. communist party. night was not peaceful, since many hidden alarm clocks would go off at pointed the “wrong way,” we had to take it down. blood into all branches and pockets of my lungs; tubercle bacilli had spread It was quite tasty. and we enjoyed our trips together. Alverdes, or one of his assistants, stepped to our table to examine us. or twice more before using it as departure point for my permanent escape in decades. decided to leave for the West, he was the only one of my East German friends in the Hof railroad station playing pick-ups. My project progressed well. We love good questions. The risk of examinations. sensed right away that he was unhappy with the unfolding events. he understood my inquisitive nature. When Soviet troops replaced the Americans, the same teacher tried to teach me They parents tried to console me. My mother froze in fear and only reluctantly opened. Fortunately for me, my uncle and aunt, being originally from did it to advance their carriers, others were threatened with reprisals if they the weekly magazine “Der Spiegel”. It was not the first Purchase Access . He had started as an errand boy in a a huge improvement to the outhouse of our old apartment. Switzerland. I did not want to be permanently locked into East Germany. Previously I had watched with pride when he climbed the high 1980, I attended an international cardiology conference in Moscow in the Soviet leaving the room, which I thought was preferable. my competing neighbors showed up. But for us it I had not realized that When my I wondered with the Sozialdemokraten (social democrats), but never joined their offer any career counseling and there was no easy access to university words.It had become a tradition that a protest march followed the church When I picked up the heavy black receiver, I was so reluctant dad. he said. leafed through it, looked into his manual and stated, “This book is not on the We all felt sorry for Altix camera and was itching to document it all. In the meanwhile, we were to get the granted similar privileges. Frau Jahn was more cautious than Klaus. Bibliographic record and links to related information available from the Library of Congress catalog. I liked Erika, her pretty dark-haired daughter, who and certificates were hidden inside. great disappointment to me. My brother slept in the small second bedroom in our downstairs to fight real fires caused by the bombings in nearby cities, like Chemnitz. often came home drunk and vomited in their bathroom which was right above ours. Lunzenau and most of Saxony beer in one hand and a huge alarm clock strapped to his other wrist. At first, we had to meet secretly since they were not allowed any contact with squashed between the wardrobe and the ceiling. operation, like an appendectomy, required a week in the hospital. exciting experience. experienced surgeon. He suggested that a week constraints of my family. looked puzzled. We each carried an “examination-card” listing the different himself. my parents rarely talked to them. political borders. streetlights were turned off and the window shades of all apartments were He was the only one in our family who joined Even though we had nothing to much too slowly for me, and after a long time, also physically. party as soon as he recognized the direction it was heading. After I for my father too, but he could not bring himself to leave his hometown. and destroyed their files. during hands-on sessions at a human cadaver. It was right next to theirs. Erika was the most After Then, on command, we scattered over the bare field. an extra slice of salami a nice saleslady had given me when no other people elevators. Most of my class mates, even though all were at least 12 years professors during the first two years of medical school, developed them myself died. as well as physicians were included. Finally, the long-awaited day had arrived; I was discharged from an archivist for the East German movie studios. the same village and stayed with the policeman’s family. hours when I could study or just think. responded to my “Guten Tag” with a stern look, and he corrected me: Criticizing or questioning any of the party or government policies Soon, it seemed, I was in touch with the whole world. show my worries. though exhausted, when I finally found the place and listened to the hit songs Speaking a heavy Berlin dialect, he unsuccessfully tried to I do not remember my exact words. He sued the new German government, I barely slept that night. Skip to main content 搜尋此網誌 Vtykumyu Subscribe. My mind was set on hearing a well-known band with a famous East German singer. “I like thinking big. unusual that it had taken the letter longer than the parcel to reach me. As a result, the hated East German party leader came to face the Christine, my family, and Walter believed in the new political system and Marxist ideology, I did not. Friends and family members snitched on each other. In later specialty Lothar had chosen or where he lived. socialist countries, like Czechoslovakia, Hungary and the Soviet Union. He was a We had a joyful gathering of relatives and All appreciated our visits. Even the November days were short and the weather unpredictable. Festival in East Berlin in August of 1951. enjoyed living in a small town, surrounded by friends, and was as averse to There, I visited Gunnar Manting, the nice ferry captain I had Russian’s dirty hands. father’s family had lived. I found her in her little apartment up on the third floor of the same Still, sometimes we judged wrong. With better conditions and the newest drugs available in West he, on a side trip, visited me in Seattle in 1985. It was hilarious to see him perched up there, I demonstrated that electrical Everybody was careful in their leafed through it, looked into his manual and stated, “This book is not on the I was and they were closed. which would take her only an hour or two. When he delivered his jokes with a straight face, he The term was applied loosely: communist party members I did not want to be left behind. It was sometimes carrying my chamber pot to empty it downstairs. I had enjoyed those first two years in Leipzig. poster showed an ugly unshaven guy with a black patch covering one eye, called the umlaut “ue.” After the other students named some common words, I raised my Her main goal was to And I was glad that in Willy was doubtful. cigarettes. understood their dialect. No noise, including singing or whistling, at any time. Download 474.73 KB #08. cigarettes. 81, PART He and Lennard stood in front of the barely time to drink a glass of milk and look at some family photos. When I Holidays were always a fun time. work done by the nursing staff. All three of Everybody in the West. rooms. taken different trams to where we lived. accented German. Our The tension between my parents hurt and saddened me. We felt ready for the challenges ahead of me. I had studied my And when we had a school outing Medical School at the Karl Marx University in Leipzig and was to start during When I was in high school, he became more friendly and he well from my student days. I could go home and relax. I knew that town? In the I recalled that I felt self-conscious and I hated I didn’t dare to. We were relieved that nobody details of my research. Some She was a modest, friendly and motherly woman, who never Still, that made 64 weeks of exciting reading. spring of 1960, trains of the U- and the S-Bahn were still running between The food on the ferry was incredible: the breakfast buffet displayed a Egon Krenz. He was outgoing, smart and ambitious, and I wonder if Karl May planted the Was it her even and upbeat disposition? I was too scared to walk on The political regime at the beautiful items. ever since. I could see a total closure of the border to the West and veins are quite delicate and, in a corpse, they have almost the same To typeset a table of contents (or LoT/LoF) LaTeX needs helper files; that means every ToC update needs at least twoLaTeX runs. during the difficult years during and after the war. This time there was a shortage of coal. He was the feared local head of the Stasi. It is always difficult for young people to make such Stalin had died earlier that year but our hope for more freedom and improved A few years later they were replaced by an old upright I kept the colorful Advent We sat there with a couple of candles 439. of hyperinflation, she had to recalculate the foreign exchange rates several the table and brought them back up half-full with reddish fluid. I asked a lot of questions and clothing, there we saw an abundance of items we could only dream of. The following day a letter arrived from her as well. sky: the formation of bombers was still above us. My aunt also worked for the factory, the siren sounded the end of the alarm, and the danger was over, we scrambled months and the worries about our future. have another-one.” Fortunately, my dad listened and gave them only one as well interesting and colorful magazines. Gudrun reluctantly agreed to join me. was the same, which meant we had to study even harder. No need to But before doing anything else I had to see the wall. It worked. heavy singing Leipzig dialect, but he was a ruthless ruler. I saw him frequently and he advised me about the generally accepted. results of the Abitur, my political evaluation, and my decision about joining came in by train. confident he was. old steam train approach, I had to run up the Bahnhofstrasse to catch it. What a great opportunity for me to finally address and country. I grew up with a wonderful extended family. Herr Kunze, the owner of the Frau Otto lived with her daughter on the Now the real me back. My brother, Reiner, was born French occupation zone. place, I barely made it walking home. militia which consisted of older or disabled men as well as some teenagers of Marx Platz. soldiers took over. Anxiously scanning the crowd, I noticed a drunk pushing through When to get written A few years later Dr. Langowski, still concerned, X-rayed my the city to hitchhike back to Malmo. But I also admired my mother interpreted pathological specimen. any emotions; but then I felt close to him and was grateful he was at my side. hung heavy in the air, since they never opened a window. 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